friends

i have had the hardest week of my adult life and i am only able to face this because of Jesus' love for me. i have many regrets over the last few years and losing my close friend last night made that thought even more real. i have considered myself a good friend and in order to have a friend you need to be one, but i recently feel like i am not the friend i want to be. i no longer want to take any of my friends for granted and most of all i don't want to disconnect from friends ever again. i have many friends, all of them special in a different way, but equally important to me. i lost one of those people in my life that is irreplaceable, but i haven't been there with her over the last several months as she fought the fight of her life. i loved her so much and regret not trying harder to stay in close contact or to take the time to see her when i was there. i am determined to be better, with god's help and the technology there is no excuse. if you are reading this and you are my friend...i love you and want you to know i love being your friend. i am a friend of god above all else and desire to be the best friend i can be for the rest of my life!

funny story

i have to get this down before i forget.  i know this may not be funny to anyone else, but this is my way of remembering these hilarious moments of luke.  we were drawing on his chalk board and i drew a house.  he then pulls out an orange and a blue piece of chalk and says "the orange is fire and the blue is the water." i knew what was coming next...he proceeded to scribble orange all over my house!  so funny, but then he asks "who is going to put out the fire?"  i said he was and i pretended to call the fire department.  he answered and said "i am at the fire engine house, but we're out of gas!"  i laughed so hard and said i will bring some and he replied "thanks"...oh he makes me laugh every day, but this was quite the scene he came up with in his little mind.  this is what the house looked like after the fire and the water...needless to say the house did not survive.  (when i asked him to come in and take a picture with the burned up house this is what i got)

this does not come easy for me

so i realize now after looking at this blog several times in the last few months and thinking i really should write something...writing is not easy.  i think for me i have to be in that mindset with no distractions, which is rare in a house with a soon to be 4 year old, and i also have to let people (you few reading this) into my world.  scary thought for me sometimes.

my last post was in january and now a quarter of 2009 is gone!!  i can't believe my one day at a time mentality has gotten me to the middle of april already.  it has been a crazy few months.  since january my husband and i have been filling in as youth pastors at our church.  we have loved every minute of it, but it was a lot for us to do.  i knew it would be a lot, but i didn't realize how much stress it would put on todd.  we took 10 students on a retreat in february (hence the picture) and had an amazing time.  we hope they had as much fun with us as we had with them the last few months.  as of yesterday we are happy (and a little sad) to say that is now someone else's ministry.  we love teenagers, but there is not enough time with everything else to do all that is needed for a great youth ministry.  we will still be helping out when our new friends (Jason and Jennifer) need us, but it is no longer our responsibility.  we are so excited to get to know them better and for luke to have a new friend.  (they have a 3 year old boy too)

i am about out of things to say, so i will say this...i am ready to take on what the future has.  which the near future probably has a job in it.  i have not worked a "real" job in over 4 years, so i am a little nervous about that.  i know that i will find the right place to be and that it will be exactly what we need as a family.  wish me luck.  be back soon.

new year...no resolutions for me

every year i think about resolutions and the things i probably should be making changes in, but i always just think about it.  i have decided no resolutions are the way to go.  instead this year is all about one day at a time and doing what god wants me to do every day.  i know the only thing worth my time and energy when it comes to thinking about making changes is to spend more time with my jesus.  i often fall short of my own expectations and i know it all goes back to giving god my best and letting him take care of everything else.  so if you are reading this, it may not sound exciting to you, but it is really more for me.  i am blogging in place of journaling, which i always start out doing and end up getting tired of writing, because my brain thinks way too fast for the pen to keep up.  i will throw in some of my favorite luke quotes and some of our family happenings, that may or may not be much, but i know my far away family and friends might want to know.  maybe not, but just in case.  so, this i guess is my non resolution, my thing to do in 2009.  i hope you find something to motivate you in this new year.  with love from kc...colleen