friends

i have had the hardest week of my adult life and i am only able to face this because of Jesus' love for me. i have many regrets over the last few years and losing my close friend last night made that thought even more real. i have considered myself a good friend and in order to have a friend you need to be one, but i recently feel like i am not the friend i want to be. i no longer want to take any of my friends for granted and most of all i don't want to disconnect from friends ever again. i have many friends, all of them special in a different way, but equally important to me. i lost one of those people in my life that is irreplaceable, but i haven't been there with her over the last several months as she fought the fight of her life. i loved her so much and regret not trying harder to stay in close contact or to take the time to see her when i was there. i am determined to be better, with god's help and the technology there is no excuse. if you are reading this and you are my friend...i love you and want you to know i love being your friend. i am a friend of god above all else and desire to be the best friend i can be for the rest of my life!